Slightly Vague, Extremely Pathetic, Surprisingly Poetic
You’ve just been acting so negatively about everything lately. Do you remember that happy person you were just a few days ago? What ever happened to her? She had no intention of ever changing anything about her or her life. It’s too bad that, when something goes wrong, everything follows. It’s like something just takes over you. All of a sudden, you can’t think straight. When you cry, everything else becomes a blur. It’s like the sadness and depression is suddenly all you have the capability to think about. You start begging yourself to stop but nothing seems to work…then you just give up. You just lie there, alone, hugging your pillow as tight as you can, as you try to convince yourself that everything’s going to be okay, and you eventually cry yourself to sleep.
You wake up to the sound of your own tears, your eyes puffy from the night before. You try to go back to sleep, but your thoughts won’t let you. Memories of the night before come rushing in, and you find yourself drowning in your own tears, furious at yourself, just because. You continue sobbing in hopes that all the crying makes you run out of tears; it’s better than the alternative of ever going through anything like this again.
As you cry, you realize how useless all of this was. Everything’s going to be fine, and you know it. You’re not gonna let a minor setback like this hold you back. You’re acting is stupid, and this is pathetic; you’re probably just overreacting again. It can all be fixed; all this crying is just going to slow you down. Things are going to get better. I’m sure of it. Everything’s going to go back to normal, and you’re going to that happy person you were just a few days ago – perfectly happy with and the way she was the way her life was going.
If you’re reading this, I’m so sorry. I had the best of intentions, but I didn’t think things through. I trust you; I really do, and I don’t ever want you to think otherwise.
Clar, why would we think anything different? Its human to feel this way from time to time; its perfectly natural =]
Just try to keep your head above water as muchas you can. Bad things happen when you’re upset because youre not as alert
Comment by Monnii Bee • July 11, 2010 • 9:29 pm
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