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Hesitation

I have this bad habit of delaying almost every little thing I do. It’s like I feel like I have to think before doing everything. I know that doesn’t sound that bad, but, most of the time, there’s nothing to think about. I usually just end up having strange arguments with myself; the me that shys away from pretty much everything versus the me that’s tired of all this useless hesitation.

This happens to me when I’m at a restaurant and have to call the waiter to order, when I’m at the bowling alley and need to ask for bowling shoes, when I’m sure I know the answer to a question at school and am not sure if I should raise my hand, when I know that I want to say, “Yes.” to being my boyfriend’s girlfriend…almost all the time.

I know it sounds irrational and stupid, but I just can’t help it. Maybe, it’s because I’m afraid of being wrong, or, maybe, it’s because I’m afraid of what other people might think of my actions, but, either way, I hate being like this. I’m just trying to somehow force myself out of it. I’m trying to force myself out of a lot of bad habits right now.

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Join the club. I feel I’m so irresponsible while I do something. I always keep forgetting. My mom has a big complaint regarding my forgetfulness. Otherwise, she says I’m a good child (: I always tend to either forget, or get confused. Both are disastrous and has led me to awful situations.

But Clarisse, it’s nothing bad. You’re just being bold and trying to be perfect. No one’s perfect yeah? You’re just right for your age (haha, that’s my mom’s favourite quote).

Ohmygod, you remind me of my bad habits. I have to stop sneaking into my iPod X)

Comment by Ash • June 6, 2010 • 8:02 pm

Clarisse, I don’t think this is a bad habit… it sounds like a good one. Even if you think people might judge you on what you say or do, you’re STILL thinking before you act. I believe it’s a good thing. I am one of those people who doesn’t think before they act and it ends up getting them in deep cow poo, so to speak.

In this case I don’t think there’s anything wrong. I guess it is “useless” hesitation because it seems like a waste of time but some things are worth thinking over. You wouldn’t want to grab the wrong meal in a restaurant! We have the right to get what we want and make sure we do things right. I know you hate being like this. Maybe you and I are complete opposites. Be me for a day? I am the most spontaneous person ever. I love to make plans but sometimes I’ll jump out of nowhere, engrossed in university work, then think, “Gee, I could do some pushups!”

Surround yourself with some spontaneous buddies. :3 Plan to “go out” but don’t plan where you’re going. JUST GO.

You’re right; Google can help you big time if you know one line. We were pretty damn stuck though, heh. ;D

My best friend says her parents probably won’t let her go to a concert until she’s 25 or something. XD Oh well. Most of my favourite bands don’t exist anymore but I am sure I will find one.

You are welcome! ^^ I hated English in year 8, I had a stupid anal teacher lol.

Comment by Georgina • June 7, 2010 • 12:00 am

I think everyone does this Clarisse :D I do that. I always second-guess my actions. Firstly, because I’m scared of what people will say and think. Secondly, I’m afraid to mess up. Thirdly, I end up seeing the worst happening and holding myself back.

And even though I second guess myself a lot, I think it’s often best to just do things without thinking. (Well most things). Sometimes, being spontaneous will be the best way to go, and often the fear of taking that chance holds us back. But we need to just take it. :D

Hahaha, my skirt was above the knee. It’s kind of difficult to find one below the knee. :P I ended up wearing a kimono the first day and pants the second :D

Mine’s runningthrusprinklers. I just started following you. Tumblr’s instructions confuse me.. but perhaps I’ll try another day, when I’m much more patient.

Failure can sometimes be a good motivator but I try to avoid using it to motivate me. Or else I might wait for myself to fail before I try doing better :P

Philippine literature? :P Sounds like english basically.

Comment by AnneMarie • June 7, 2010 • 9:54 am

That’s how it is with a lot of people. Reason I’d call myself an introvert. :P I take time to get to know people rather then going around telling everyone who I am and expecting them to tell me the same.

We don’t have uniforms anymore (: We have a dress code :P

You consider Filipino your second language? But it’s your first. :P You’re probably the first person I’ve met whose from the Philippines to say that. :P

But that’s how it is with English. Sometimes I feel like it’s my second language because English is sometimes a difficult subject. They make you figure out all this symbolic language that I normally would find utterly pointless. :P

Comment by AnneMarie • June 7, 2010 • 11:10 am

It could be, but I’m still not sure on it.
I’m was soo surprised that someone would even say that too me. I mean wtf? It just doesn’t happen everyday.
Yup Tumblr is awesome. :D

I don’t think it’s actually about habit. It’s kinda good because you think before you do anything. I actually do something similar. Like I always talk myself out of something before I do it because i am ALWAYS afraid of what people would think. I don’t know why I’m that way but that’s just how it is with me.

Comment by isi • June 7, 2010 • 5:45 pm

I’ve seen that with one of my friends once. People try to tell her that she’s not what she says she is. I mean seriously, how are going to tell someone else what their race is??? don’t make sense lol.

It could be a good and a bad habit, it could come in handy some day. :D

Comment by isi • June 7, 2010 • 7:00 pm

I see what you mean. I guess there are both advantages and disadvantages to being hesitant like that. :(

I’m not usually like that with waiters but sometimes when I phone/call people, I get iffy about how I should address them or what I should say exactly on the phone. D:

Haha well it’s a good thing and I hope you become less hesitant later on. :)

I know 30 Seconds to Mars is coming in July, but I’m not sure if I want to go because I’m not a massive fan. :P

Comment by Georgina • June 7, 2010 • 10:06 pm

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